I'm never a good weather friend... and obviously... never going to be anyone's 'goodtime' friend. all my real friends know this for certain.
iniisip ko kasi, if i'm a friend... i'm a friend... period.
and it shouldn't really be an issue if i get to know /be introduced to my friends' other friends. naisip ko tuloy kung may kahiya-hiya ba sa akin.
it made me think really... what happened last weekend with a 'friend'. napaisip tuloy ako if i may be seen by some as a 'goodtime friend'... a private friend... that one never has to worry of getting embarrassed of in case the other friends don't like or click with.
i just feel like i'm so way... above such underestimation... and i'm not ashamed to claim this... because i strongly feel that i've earned (after many years of proving my worth as a friend) the kind of respect i deserve to get from my friends.
i was determined to shrug it off last weekend but i guess, it bothers me more than i initially thought and i feel the need now to get it out.
this goes to everyone... especially the ones i get personally intimate with. if you think there's something about me that embarrasses you... please, i beg you... unfriend me. okay?
I feel you may be overthinking things here - but then again I lack full context.
ReplyDeleteif you experience this of thing for the first time, it's okay to tell yourself that you may be 'overthinking' it... but if it's happened more than a couple of times in your lifetime already, it's a thing to confront, man.
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